Yes!
Ok, fine! I admit it! I am a worry wart. I worry constantly because I am a control freak and like to know exactly what's going to happen when, who will be there, what they will be wearing....
ok, not really. God has been teaching me recently exactly what he meant in Matthew 6:25-32. Take today for example, (I could use that spiffy little "i.e." deal, but I won't) I had a test in Government. Well, the last test I got a 68 on. The highest grade was a 78, so it was a crappy test. Well, I was freaking out all yesterday and today about this test and I was planning my time so I would have enough time to study everything, which of course I got behind schedule and didn't get to everything, then I left these articles in the car when I went to class that I was going to finish reading. So I'm feeling like I'd just rather sink deeper into the couch in the lounge room and not get up until everyone else is done with the test. But, I braved my way into the room, up the stairs to my seat and kept my head up the whole time. As a result (not by my own studying b/c it was severely lacking), I think I only missed 3 questions. (The reason I know this is
because we went over the test afterwards) that means I would get an A! So... This is what I learned: "But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness and all these things will be added to you. Therefore, do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for today is its own trouble" (Matt 6:31-32). The more I worry about stuff and the more I try to plan stuff out or predict the outcome of a particular event, I place myself in the position to not be blessed by God. If I let my anxiety take
precedence over seeking him daily, I am in effect saying, "Ok, Lord, you just skip me today on your daily blessings distributions, I'm too busy doing your job". Yeah, sound a little too far fetched? I don't think so.
So, I've learned my lesson. Next time I have a test, I will not be stressing myself out about it, I'll just prepare for the trial by studying. That's a plan, but it's not doing God's job.
:)